(In) Completion of Art

For me to feel like my painting is completely finished as a piece: well i have never experienced this. i can't describe the circumstance of event because i haven't lived it. This description of situation is equivalent to me talking about what it's like to marry a rich, power hungry meathead, it's far from what i will live.

I imagine though that if i had a piece that felt and looked to me to be a complete work of art, everything that i meant to express would be clearly represented by symbols or expression, there would be no tranparency in colour anywhere. lines that are meant to be straight would be. all cheeks are well blended. a finished painting will not give me anxiety or frustration to view aesthetically like my unfinished ones.

Which brings me to my memory: i need some new paintbrushes and paints. The more i paint, the more i spend because cheap quality brushes shed bristles or harden. Cheap quality paint goes on transparent even after 2-3 layers. I paint so many layers on every painting i have because i want the consistency of colour to be ripe, the definition of shape to be fit, the physique of form to have depth and temperature. Most importantly, the language of symbol to have well thought out concept.

No, a painting is never complete, how can it be when time does not stand still, even though it doesn't exist in a linear line, like illustrations do.